Not when Carter told me to pack.
Not when Patricia said I should be grateful for whatever apartment he provided.
When the practical issues were settled enough for me to make the decision properly.
I chose my own place.
The first morning there, I made coffee and stood by the window.
The kitchen was quieter than the one I had shared with Carter.
There were fewer cabinets.
No marble island large enough to seat six.
No wine refrigerator Carter liked showing people.
No dining room Patricia could inspect.
I had one chair beside the window.
I sat in it for almost an hour.
Nobody asked what the chair cost.
Nobody reminded me who had paid for the coffee.
It was one of the most comfortable mornings I could remember.
I saw Carter one final time several weeks after most of the paperwork had been resolved.
There were still ordinary loose ends.