I went to surprise my husband at the hospital with his lunch. His colleague looked at me with tears in his eyes and said: “He hasn’t told you anything, has he?”

pocket every single morning, in front of me, at the kitchen door, had not opened a door in that building since the spring.

He had been getting up, showering, putting on a clean shirt, and leaving at ten past seven for eleven months.

So where was he going?

A distribution warehouse out at Brackley Cross, twenty-six minutes away.

Eleven at night until six in the morning. Eight months of it. Under his own name, on a payroll, with a locker and a number.

Because after the third month, suspension stops being paid.

I did not know that. I had no reason to know it and I have since found out that almost nobody does.

The money is the part nobody asks about, so I will put it down.

Our outgoings are four thousand one hundred a month. That is the mortgage, the car, her swimming, the lot.

A night shift